Life According to Ping ...

November 27, 2004

I remembered when I was a kid, I always wonder what would I choose if I were to have the choice of reading people's mind or to be invisible. Sounds silly but I think its so cool to be able to read poeple's mind. Then I realised, its scary. Isnt scary to know what the people around you is thinking about. Isnt it scary if they are merely pretending to be yours but yet not.

And when I was a kid, I realised I did all the right stuff to gain approval. The happiness a kid gets when he/she is praise by an adult. And even now as an adult, I realised I still seek for approval. Then I realised, do I need their approval? Perhaps I do. Yet are you good enough to judge? Who is capable of judging your decisions? And I decided to learn not to judge anymore. Im not in position to.

And no longer do I want explain my actions. Which some deem to be an attitude problem. This attitude is what that keeps me going on really.

November 26, 2004

Its been a while.

27 Oct 2004
The full moon?
Made my way to the infamous full moon party. Late bus for 2 hours. Freaking mad & drunk Swedish guy. Sleep. Ferry ride. Horrendous. Puke. Tv blown up. Bad burnt smell. Got to Koh Tao. Lunch. Ferried to Koh Pha Ngan. Got an oki deal for room with private beach though it aint much of a beach. Got a bike.


28 Oct 2004
Full Moon Party.
Mushroom. Crazy. Sober. 6 am.

29 Oct 2004.
Pretty day. I fell. Pain.


30 Oct 2004.
Ferry. Bus. Bus. Hatyai. 5 hours ride. Hopping. Extension of Tourist visa. Mini Vans. 12 hours ride back to Bkk.

31 Oct 2004.
I could get into halloween party with my bandages as a mummy i guess.


Postponed Sister's flight. He came. Pretty much inmobile with the occasion MBK treats.

15 Nov 2004-24 Nov 2004
-Sony Dsc-T3 Pigged out week. Restaurants week I must say. Grand palace. Phototaking competition. Shopping. Kanchanaburi- Good food. 28.8 Kg of baggage back home.

24 Nov 2004.
Flew from Airport to catch bus down to Cambodia. Really thought we missed the bus but thank goodness. It was still there. Went to the border of Cambodia. Quite an experience I must say. Foreigners often visit border to extend their tourist visa as the immigration charges 1900 Bht for ten days extention for me. The trip to Cambodia plus bribery fee - 1900 Bht- 30 days extention. Got in the queue with this old lady & a balding english guy. The guy had been going across the border to extend his visa a couple of times. Followed the experience around. Paid the fees to the immigration officer to facilitate the chopping of my passport at the Cambodia site. Almost missed my bus due to the horrendous queue at the Thai side ( I did not queue at Cambodia side simply because I paid 200 Bht. Of course if I queue, I still have to pay) Rushed back to Bus. Another 5 hours ride in exchange for 30 days.

Today
Mario flew back. Someone who came willingly to take care of cripple me. Someone in my opinion was so decent even though so much had happened. And seriously who decides if you are good enough?
Thanks.


November 14, 2004

I tried to comprehend what went wrong. I guess everyone would think that they are right.
For me, its simple.
I was scare.
And now Im awfully grateful. To you. To you who makes me realise who is worth it.

November 07, 2004

Dare I say dont miss home. Dare not. But I cant go home now. Not in this condition.

I just miss my life.

I injured my foot. Fell of a bike and I seem to be taking forever to recover. Things had changed drastically. Lifestyle, attitudes, and people. Then again, it could be me who had changed. Its easier to blame others most of the time isnt it.

Im not looking for sympathy here. I just want to go gym. I never knew how fortunate it is to be able to walk. Now I do know and I cant wait.